In the last 2 weeks I’ve been so discourage with things do not go well as I expected with our plan.

I feel like we are trapped in our life busyness yet we suppose to do more contacting people and looking for more opportunities to share about our ministry plan and needs with people.

It seems that everything stops just right there. We do not know what to do, how to move on, or who else to contact.

Yes, I am feeling discourage with all of those. Why? Because I expected more that we could do. Because I wanted to do more but I am limited. Because I would like to do more than just what I am doing now at home, but I couldn’t. Because I wanted Dave to act more but he couldn’t because of his working hours and projects. And more reasons that we could think of.

My husband had talked with his employer about the plan, and they made decision that by end of June he can work with more fleksible time and by April next year he will be done with his work. It means soon it will be less income and then no income at all? That means we have to have enough supports to live our life, the baby will be here in September, we need a reliable family car, paying bills, every day living costs, insurance, also we need funds for our Partnership Development process, and many other needs… The list goes on!

All these things are juggling my mind and heart upside down. Worries are taking over my mind again. How can we do this? Can we survive to live here? What will happen if by the time Dave has no job and we still cannot go? What should we do? And then more questions keep popping up in my mind, and pretty sure in his heart and mind, too.

For we have a target to go on the field by June next year, and how that possible?

Today, again, God is telling me something from His word. When I read from the book of Psalm this morning, here what God’s word:

Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!

Now I am deeply discouraged,
but I will remember you—
even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan, from the land of Mount Mizar.

I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.

But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life.

“O God my rock,” I cry,
“Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I wander around in grief,
oppressed by my enemies?”

Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!

(Psalm 42:5-9, 11 NLT)

God reminds me from this passage that when we are discouraged or in difficult time, He never leave not forsake you and I, because:

• He is our hope, our God and Savior.
• We need to remember what mighty things ad works He has done in our lives in the past and He is able to do more.
• He is our mighty and powerful God.
• He loves us with His unfailing love.
• We worship Him all time.
• We always pray to Him, who gives us life.
• He is our rock.

God reminds me that all things that I’ve mentioned above, all the things on our To-Do list and all our plans are meant to be done with God’s power and way, not with ours. How can I forgot about it? It is impossible of us to get things done, but IT IS POSSIBLE with God & through Christ!

God’s plan is never fail! He NEVER FAILS! As long as we live and do what God has planned, obey and submit to His authority, He will lead our way and guide every step we have to take to accomplish His will in our live.

At the end, all the glory, praise, honor and thanks be to God! All who see what has done will worship God!

“God’s work done in God’s way will never lack God’s supplies.”- Hudson Taylor